December 27th, 2002

Jam

Idle random thoughts...

Have ya ever felt like you didn't fit into any particular gender? This is where I am at this present moment... I know from within that I don't want or wish to transiton to male.. I mean hell if that was what I wanted I would have started that a long time ago. Being as that isn't the case... I am left with feeling unwanted or recognized by anything... Which makes me feel pretty much like I am gender fucked... meaning I don't fit in anywhere. See.. I get the strange looks from everyone.. Male and female combinded. Every time I go into a public restroom.. when I am alone something happens.. someone says something... ingorance yes.. but after all these damn years.. You would think it would stop. I get told that I don't belong anywhere... which just makes things harder. I gotta love my girl diamondfemme who is always listening to me... saying how I don't fit in and all that.. and its no wonder she has her idle thoughts.

Just curious....

PC lost and dazed and confused in space...
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