Now it seems as though she's changed her mind and she's made the choice to transition. I'm terrified that the T will change her in the same way I've seen it change those around me. I'm terrified of her becoming a different person, and as a woman-identified female, I feel like I am being left behind for the lure of maleness. I also am not really attracted to men, whether self-identified, or transexual or not, and I don't really want her to be my boyfriend. I know these worries must sound petty, but I am genuinely driven by my desire for the best for her, and I don't believe that she has fully thought out what has changed her mind, or all the intricacies of such a decision. She tends to decide things quickly without thinking about them. I'm terrified, and I feel so alone, and I'm scared of losing the person I fell in love with. I'm scared of her changing into someone who I don't love/desire or who doesn't love/desire me. I'm scared of her becoming a man, because I don't have any desire to be with a man.
Does anyone have any advice, or suggestions for reading, or helpful medical information? I would really appreciate your kind and sympathetic response. Thank you.